One year in Tokyo


Ironically, this photo was not taken in Tokyo.

I don’t know how to start this post.

In fact, this post is a month late because I don’t know how to put into words all the feelings of love and gratitude and happiness I feel being able to live in this amazing country for the past year (and also because I’m being a procrastinator as always lol).

Have you ever felt like there is a place where you feel like you truly belong, a place where you can really call home? I’ve always felt awkward and out of place despite living in Malaysia for most of my life but I think Tokyo is that place for me.

The city with it’s always-changing landscapes, it’s vibrant nightlife, the kindness of random strangers everywhere, being able to get anywhere quickly with the convenience of public transport, having clean toilets even at dodgy-looking highway rest stops, the fact that you can go to the konbini at 5am in the morning alone dressed in your pajamas without having to worry about being robbed or raped or kidnapped…

I like it. I love it. I never want to leave.

All the friendships I’ve built living in a sharehouse here with a warm and welcoming community also helps. Imagine being fed with sweets and yummy treats almost everyday by your neighbours who “made a little extra”, going on trips to Kyoto and Okinawa, getting drunk and doing crazy things together until late into the night…

I’m really glad I took the plunge to move into a sharehouse instead of living alone (partly because it was too annoying to view different properties and I am an extremely lazy person) because without all these people my life in Tokyo would have probably turned out really differently.

Moving to Tokyo has also been really crucial for my development as a human being. I used to be very selfish and spoilt, always needing everything to go my way and throwing tantrums or crying when I don’t get what I want (you should ask Cheryl how I was like when we first became friends lol). Nowadays, I think I’m still a little spoilt (in fact one of my friends called me the most ワガママ person in our sharehouse oops) but I’m learning how to be more tolerant and considerate of other people.

I’m also learning how to socialize with people more despite me being super introverted and shy. It also helps that I’m surrounded by lots of friendly people willing to strike up conversations with you at any time of the day. Of course it still gets overwhelming sometimes being surrounded by so many people, so when that happens I’ll retreat into my room and read a book or watch a movie on my laptop or just lie on my bed contemplating about how to best conquer the world. Kidding.

In fact, I recently even took up a part-time job (insert shocked gasps and incredulous faces here). My friends used to tell me that they can’t imagine me ever working because I’m too fragile and emotional and won’t last in the harsh world of working adults (lol) and I myself used to think that all I wanted in life was to find myself a husband, get married, and be a stay at home mother.

But being in Tokyo, and being surrounded by so many independent and successful people, my mindset has slowly started to change. I wanted to grow and change as a person and the first step to doing that is to gain as many experiences as I can here in Tokyo. Right now, I work part-time at a fashionable store selling vintage branded bags in Omotesando after school and I haven’t thought of quitting so far so I guess it’s going pretty well? (laughs)

Finally, I just want to say that I’m really thankful to have such supportive parents who allowed their daughter to fulfil her dreams of living in Tokyo. Without their support both emotionally and financially, I’d never have been able to live the life I’ve always been dreaming of ever since I was five. Thank you daddy. Thank you mummy. I love you.

Right now, I have a little less than a year left before my student visa expires and I still don’t know what I’m going to do after that. Will I be able to find a job here? Should I start my own business instead? Do I want to live in Tokyo forever? So many questions which I have yet to answer. But one thing is for sure, living in Tokyo has been one of the best experiences of my life and no matter where I end up in the future, my memories of this place will be my most precious treasure.

x, Hermes



♬ Song of the day – Tokyo Dreamer [NICO Touches The Walls]



Tokyo Dreamin’


So this is it.

I’m finally here in Tokyo. It’s been a dream of mine ever since I was a little girl to someday be able to experience living in Japan. My love affair with Japan started when I was five years old, watching Sailormoon everyday after preschool. Slowly, I began watching more anime on Astro such as Ranma 1/2, Ayashi No Ceres, Hana Yori Dango, Samurai X and more and my love for Japan just grew and grew. There’s honestly no words to describe how much I love this country, their culture, food, fashion, anime, manga, etc.. etc.. etc. In fact, most of my life I’ve been dressing up in clothing from Japanese brands, eating Japanese food weekly, reading news and gossip from Japanese sites, and making friends with other people who loved Japan. Many people in Malaysia thought I was a weirdo and would talk bad about me behind my back but to me it didn’t matter because I was happy being who I was. I used to tell myself that one day, I would live in Tokyo and now here I am. Living my dream.Someone once told me that if you wish for something hard enough, it will come true. So keep on wishing guys! Who knows, your dreams may be fulfilled someday too.

Bisous xx.



♬ Song of the day – When You Wish Upon A Star [Linda Ronstadt]

One Last Time.


Hello, it’s me. The girl who’s been incessantly creating and abandoning blogs since I was in high school. I’ve lost count of the number of times I keep registering new domains and making promises to myself that this time, I will blog more. This time, I will become a hardworking blogger who publishes tidbits about my life every week. Alas, the inevitable always happens and my laziness will get the better of me every. single. time. Honestly, I’ve really thought of quitting blogging completely. But there’s this tiny part of me that refuses to let go, this ache in me to have a space where I can pen (or in this case type) down my innermost thoughts and feelings. And what better excuse to start blogging again than the fact that I’ll be leaving for Tokyo in three days. Three more days to the adventure of a lifetime. So here it is, the last blog I will ever create in this lifetime. I hope you will enjoy the ride with me.

Bisous xx.



♬ Song of the day – Start Of Something New [High School Musical]